Hello All! Today's PROOF is just humbling! I had someone I help with spiritual direction come to me to share what happened to him while he was working with someone. He realized he had sat at a table at a restaurant and didn't order anything and basically used it to work with this person. He realized it and said maybe I'll buy a brownie and tea. Then he thought that he didn't need a brownie. Then he saw an older couple with four grandkids and bought them all brownies. When he walked out, he got overwhelmed with emotion. He decided to share it with me and I told him what he was feeling was God's grace! That overwhelming feeling came from a sense of gratitude to God for the grace he bestowed on him by making a wretch like he once was, a child of God. One who thinks of things like not stealing space and time from a restaurant, and rather than buying himself something he thought to do this good deed. This is something he would not have thought to do in his past but because God graced him with this new life, he got to share that amazing grace with this family. He then shared it with me and after our recovery meeting tonight as we prayed I got all emotional and tears welled up because of that same feeling of his amazing grace on me that has allowed me to become the kind of man another man comes to for help and direction. The kind of man who experienced a lot of pain, mostly self inflicted, that eventually brought me to god, was not wasted. The reason it wasn't wasted is because that pain, brought me and this man together in a spiritual relationship of sharing, helping and growing closer to God and our fellow man. Tell me God isn't real and I will raise you this and many stories like this to prove he is alive and well and very BIG! God Bless!
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Today's PROOF comes in the way of getting too rather than having too! I remember for years feeling like life was a burden full of things I had to do! I had to pay bills, I had to go to work, I had to clean the car and house, I had to and to an to! Even in my first years of sobriety I still felt this way about a bunch of things! Then I was sat down and taught the true humility that comes in the way of gratitude! There was a time when I slept in my car and worse. I couldn't go five minutes without being high in some way, shape or form! I would whine and whine and no one would listen! Could you blame them? Of course not, they had their own lives to work through! But, once it was put to me that life is all about being grateful for whatever you may have as a blessing from God. I remember my first sober apartment! It was in an old sea side hotel converted into what they called condominiums. There were two rooms. One was the kitchen, living room and dining room. The other was the bedroom and you could fit my bed and a dresser with a foot of walking space between them. The space was on point as it had long shag carpet!LOL My brother bought me a 13 inch black and white TV and I was driving a 12 yr old Isuzu pup pickup with 187000 miles on it. I could actually see the road beneath my feet as I drove. It had no air and vinyl seats. This was august at that time and the temps were in the 90's, and I had to wear a suit to my new job. The old me would have been whining all day and all night but this new me that took form after being taught the get too, was so deeply grateful to have it all. I got to have a place to live, I got to have a vehicle that took me to a job that I got to go to. I got to earn money to pay for it all and I got to eat, and the most important part is, I didn't have to be a burden to anyone. God taught me through my first sponsor that true gratitude contains the humility to realize just how blessed we are to be alive in God's universe. Things and stuff can make life livable or a burden. The difference between the two is the realization of how lucky we are to be blessed with anything we get to borrow from God. I don't own a house. Instead, I live in the house God rents me. I don't own a car. I drive a car that God gave me to drive. All of the stuff and things in this world are blessings that are his to give and when we realize we are blessed, we are in a space called gratitude which is driven by humility. Humility is not an F word it is a state of being that enables us to receive God's Grace and Mercy! Start and end each ay with telling God how grateful you are for everything in your lie and watch how your life and attitude changes forever to the good! God Bless!
Today's PROOF comes in the way of honesty through a challenging day! I am trying to build something and it is going super slow! I have spent a ton of money in trying to make it go and I am at a point where it needs to start going, if you get my drift. I am unable to start podcasting as I don't know yet how to archive and actually do one and post to all manner of media. As a result, the initial book surge has ended at 145 which I have learned is more than most who start out unknown. So thank you to all who have purchased it! I am now praying for the next direction with all of this and the sober living establishment! I keep moving forward but it's challenging at times when I lean on my own understanding of the situation and subtly fear seeps in. I am just as fallible as anyone but today I am a child of God loved by God! Therefore, I may not be able to see the forest through the trees but God has a path through to the other side, no matter how circuitous it may be. To which I will be able to stand on the other side and see the whole forest and be humbled and amazed at how he brought me through! This I know because of how he has brought me through many forests over the years and I remain unscathed! I may get scratched now and again because I fight his direction but mostly I sit in amazement of how wonderfully the ultimate painter, paints the tapestry of my life! I will continue to walk with purpose until I can no longer breathe and when that day comes, I will enter eternity and continue! Always continue in faith my friends, Jesus did!
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